Sunday, December 30, 2012

Home sweet Home

The past week has glided by- not too slow or too fast. The exact amount of time needed in the mountains. I feel like a snake shedding a skin of anxiety and stress. Ready to slither into the new year, shiny and fresh. That last week was exactly what I needed. I got to do everything I wrote about doing in my last post. kaleia was a dream bebe, and defnitely loves to travel. She loves to explore and be on the move, as long as I'm right there with her.
 It was cozy, real and perfect. We had long, good talks. We argued, then made up. I got frustrated at times- being on someone else schedule, having to abide by the predetermined tasks. But in the end it was humbling, and made me grateful for my life, and my home. Exactly what I needed.

These two <3

Coziest of kitchen's at J's Step Mom Sandie's home where we stayed.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Twas the night before taveling...

Bella Coola
The mountain's surround the Bella Coola Valley
As I sit here an attempt to blog while also trying to keep my eyes open, I can't help but be thrilled despite the severe lack of sleep and this being one of the most stressful weeks I've ever endured. Because tomorrow my little family of 3 are going on our first plane ride adventure together, deep into the wild British Columbia interior, where the mountains meet the ocean, to Bella Coola. The homeland of my husband's family of fisherman and forest rangers.

 I really couldn't be more excited. I can't wait to escape the city and to just be in the quiet and darkness that only mountains and a population of 1800 can give you. I want to snuggle up by the wood burning stove in the morning and drink my coffee with wool socks on, snuggling my sleepy minnow while we watch the snow fall from the window. I want to trek through the forest on snow shoes with my daughter on my back in her star shaped snow suit with my husband by my side excitedly showing me his many tree forts from his childhood. I want to have to bring dogs with us on our hikes so we know when there are bears approaching, because we are so deep into the wild. I want to feel the welcoming of Josh's amazing extended family as the coo over Kaleia. I want to smell the forest, ocean and cold winter air all in one breath. I want to take a million pictures, and write in my leather-bound journal. I want to have long delicious sleeps. I know that may not happen with my wild pixie daughter around, but I'm sure in the silence of the mountains she'll find some peace and have long delcisous sleeps with . I think all of us three need some peace.

With the hectic city life it's so easy to be caught up in the endless tasks and responsibilities. And I've learned how difficult it is to function on little sleep with such a busy life. My main hope for this trip is to just truly relax and let go of all the stress my body is clinging to. Not have a clock dictating our schedule. Go to bed early and wake up early with my baby. I want and NEED to just simply live, with no agenda.

I didn't know how much I missed nature until now. In Victoria we are spoiled with amazing views and ocean. But I miss mountains most of all. It's in the mountains where I truly feel closer to the undeniable force that seems to connect us all. Some call it god. I don't know what I call it. But I feel it. It is there. And standing in a forest surrounded by those gorgeous rock giants I truly feel alive, and am in complete awe of their humbling presence.

I can't wait to introduce my daughter to the breathtaking world we're about to discover together with our loving husband/daddy leading the way.

Stay tuned for photos of our adventures :)

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Precious Moments

There is nothing I find more magical than seeing my daughter's wise, old soul, eyes experience life.
There's a fiery determination and a wildness about her I recognize in myself.
Though she's not like me in how she processes excitement.
I explode with energy with huge animated smiles and excited exclaims.
She, like her Papa, internalizes everything. She is very serious. Stone faced- with eyes focused and alert. She's concentrating. Processing everything.
I adore taking her places, introducing her to the world. Watching her absorb information with an insatiable curiosity I am so proud of.

Fresh Ink

Sunday Funday; Bushart Gardens Lights

 Everything is more fun with Kaleia.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Family Visit

Auntie Jordyn
Opening Presents like a boss

Grandpa and Kaleia

Uncle Dillon and Kaleia

Momma Love. Poor little runny nose.